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I Kill Myself

Sat, 15 Mar 2008 06:01:37 +0100

It all passed...........

What I did is kiling myself...

Part of me is dead...
it is an unchanged fact...

but what can I do...

Cause and effect...
It just the result of what I did before...

I didn't feel sorry about myself...

But...
something...
I really feel sad and hope be forgave...

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2008

Mon, 14 Jan 2008 17:26:56 +0100

The is the first post in 2008...
I hv a new start...
I and Mr. A also have a new start...

Oh...I haven't introduce who is Mr. A
He is my new boyfriend...
we started our relationship... about one month...

I know there is no forever...

But at least...

As long as it can be...

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Another Birthday

Sat, 24 Nov 2007 18:52:25 +0100

This year, I was having my Birthday with a new friend ...
we had a short trip...
um...
nice trip...
but tired...

this is my 24th birthday...

24...
is it another stage of my life ?

maybe i hv to change something...
some... thought...
some... behavior...
then...
step forward...

um...
24...
I am 24 now...

Happy Birthday to me...

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Is it a BET ?

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 16:44:49 +0200

Every relationship is just give and take ?
am I dare to give this time ?
I am afraid...
Sometime "Sure" depends on both sides...
I am willing to give...
how about the others?
ok.. im not asking for any reture...
but the things is...
worth to give ?

I am sure what I am doing...
so how about you...

Discomposure comes from unknown...

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Get Lost

Thu, 16 Aug 2007 10:57:37 +0200

Sometime... I also get lost in crowd...
I don't know what I want...
Where I have to go...
What I can do...
What I really need...
Maybe I would do sometimg out of mind... out of rational...
and fall in dark...

but...

who cares...

No matter what...
You still who you are...
No one is perfect...
No one can have clear mind... all the time...

Let yourself get lost in part of you life-time...
Treat it as a break of your busy life...

Trust me...
You will get back to normal...

"Crazy" is just part of the DNA of human...
Don't think you are abnormal...

We all the same...

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Wisdom of Word

Sun, 12 Aug 2007 06:07:41 +0200

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Golden Rules

Sun, 12 Aug 2007 05:26:34 +0200

Do something other people not willing to do
... will get more...

When others all scare about that...
don't be afraid to give a try...

When other people too crazy about that...
you have to think clear...

Is that true ?

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A Crazy Night

Sat, 04 Aug 2007 15:12:46 +0200

Last Monday...
Wilson came to Hong Kong for business trip...
We finally meet...
yes...
finally...

We went out for a drink...
and had a cray night...

I don't know am I doing something right...
but it was a wonderful night...

Full of excitement...

A night recall the human nature...

Deep inside me...
I hope it once again...

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My New Contract

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 12:21:18 +0200

My new contract is readly...
and my final decision is...
I sign it and give it back to the big boss in person...

She increase my salary to 10K... is 25%...
and I got 5K bonus within this four months...
more than a staff who work for a year...
maybe is still below the market a bit...
but the thing is...
actually...
they treat me not bad...
is not like what the other staff said...
and those boss are nopt that bad too...
at least for me...

I can understand that...
In office...
too hard working also not a good thing...
I still heard sth bad from their mouth...
not feeling good...
should be...
but...
am I needa care about what they think ?

ai... complicated human relationship...
what a life game...

I hope I can be a good player...
and do my job best~

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Is That Bad ?

Sun, 24 Jun 2007 19:20:36 +0200

How to deal with your boss...
Is she really bad that they all wanna quit the job??
too bad....I don't understant...
We work so happy together...
I am a newb there...
I don't know what happened to them before...
but I still hope those quit will have a better future...

But...
Am I worth to stay there ?
Where is my future...

maybe...
I still not mature enough to handle such kind of problem...

shit...

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Love me Accapella

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 15:28:22 +0200

Love me Accapella ( 你很愛我 )

曲：雷頌德
詞：側田 (On Your Mark)
編：側田 (On Your Mark)
監：側田 (On Your Mark) / 雷頌德

( A ) wish you'd bring me candies
when i feel lonely dream that
you were my husband-to-be in 365
all i ask is one name it
after me

wish you'd write my name on your favourite plain tree look in
my eyes, love is all you can see night and day i dream that
things are the way before will you love me more

( B ) where, when and why did you make me cry
loneliness has become another part of life tears running
strong and angels have gone don't how to carry on

( C ) baby i need you now
i need your arms to hold me tight tonight please turn the
lights down low and feel my body glow whisper and flow

baby i need you now
i need your strength to hold me down tonight the world is out
of sight cause you are all
that i've been searching for the way
you make me feel adored

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When It's Rain...

Mon, 23 Apr 2007 13:54:29 +0200

When it is raining...
who you would think of...

Today is a rainly day...
also a working Monday (I start hate monday.... = = ...)

I think of a song...
"When it starts raining ... im thinking of you..."

different weather...
different mood...

in what situation you will think of someone...

what make you think of me...

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I am Employed

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 22:53:23 +0200

I got a job from my Alma Mater...

is it a good thing ?
I am not sure...
but the thing is ...
I am going to work with those madam(office)...
and by boss is not easy to serve...
those are so many political things happened...

am I needa afraid of this ?
am I needa worry about this ?

I just think every office does have such kind of things happened...
so ?
pay attention to my work...
and be carefull of the relations with people...

hope I can pass these three months...

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I Need a JOB

Sun, 25 Mar 2007 17:04:36 +0200

I Need a JOB ...
I REALLY NEED A JOB...

After graduated few months...
I need to think clear what I am going to do...
Think clear of my career...
I can't just keep the part time tutor job...

Am I wanna be a REAL Teacher?
Then I needa study a Dip Ed...
Am I interested in mass media?
What kind of media field I would like to join...
Am I wanna more stable?
Be the civil servant?
Lots of Questions...

Oh god...
Where's my way of life...

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How to make shadow become the power to move on

Fri, 16 Mar 2007 06:07:07 +0100

Are you one of character of the tragedy?
Things are just bad to you?
How you deal with your darkness part...
How to face to your shadow...

People tend to think... things around just bad to him/her...
They are the unlucky one...
Because they are not good enough so they have to face that worst things...
or... that's life...
they can't change anything...
that's my tragedy...

Things really bad like that?

I don't know...
although I am not those who think they are tragedy queen...
but I also the one... sometime feel depress...
a strong depression... that make you hate yourself...

I read a book call "The Secret of the Shadow" by Debbie Fordwhat it said... I totally understand...
I known well of my shadow...
but i just can't help...
That's the worst part...
you know what happened to yourself but you can't change it...

Don't think I am a crepehanger...
no... I am not...

I keep move on my life in positive ways...

But the shadow keep follows......

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TRUE MEANING OF MALE STATEMENTS

Tue, 13 Mar 2007 07:22:02 +0100

Statement: "I'm a Romantic."
True Meaning: "I'm poor."

Statement: "You're the only girl I've ever cared about."
True Meaning: "You are the only girl who hasn't rejected me."

Statement: "I really want to get to know you better."
True Meaning: "So I can tell my friends about it."

Statement: "She's kinda cute."
True Meaning: "I wouldn't kick her out of bed but a pillow over the
head might be necessary."

Statement: "I don't know if I like her."
True Meaning: "She won't sleep with me."

Statement: "Was it good for you?"
True Meaning: "I'm insecure about my manhood."

Statement: "I had a wonderful time last night."
True Meaning: "Who are you?"

Statement: "Do you love me?"
True Meaning: "I've done something stupid and you might find out."

Statement: "Do you 'really' love me?"
True Meaning: "I've done something stupid and you're going to find
out sooner or later."

Statement: "How much do you love me?"
True Meaning: "I've done something really stupid and someone's on
their way to tell you by now."

Statement: "I have something to tell you."
True Meaning: "Get tested."

Statement: "I've been thinking a lot."
True Meaning: "You're not as attractive as when I was drunk."

Statement: "I think we should just be friends."
True Meaning: "You're ugly."

Statement: "I've learned a lot from you."
True Meaning: "Next!!!!"

Statement: "I'm on a long distance call, can you call me later?" True Meaning: "I gotta turn on my answering machine."

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My Fresh Cookies

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 19:55:40 +0100

Finally done...
My Chocolate cookies (with cranberry and cashew)

Waiting... they are in the oven...

Oh... first round...

My fresh product~

ha~ new try~
not too bad~
haha~

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My Cooking

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 18:27:40 +0100

I find those photo in my DC memory card...

My frist try of Blueberry Muffin...

mu mother like my blueverry muffin so much...

My first try of Peach Pie...

but follow the recipe... I think is too sweet...
um... maybe... if I have time I should make my own recipe for it...

One of the chinese dessert...

Barbecue with lemon&honey sauce

I love to make that... but need more time to perpare...

Chinese Dishes...

Fried Noodles...

My mother always cook this for me when I was a kid...

Sweet and Sour Pork

so nice...

Sweet & Spicy Shrimp

Beside steam fish, shrimp is another seafood that won't too difficult to make...

Chicken...

Is my favorite dishes...

and now I am making Cookies~
hahaha

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Man Jokes

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 12:42:27 +0100

Why does a man prefer blondes?
Men always like intellectual company.

Why does a man like love at first sight?
It saves them a lot of time.

A woman of 35 thinks of having children. What does a man of 35 think of?
Dating children.

How can you tell soap operas are fictional?
In real life, men aren't affectionate out of bed.

What should you give a man who has everything?
A. A woman to show him how to work it.
B. Penicillin

Why do black widow spiders kill their males after mating?
To stop the snoring before it starts.

Why don't men have mid-life crises?
They stay stuck in adolescence.

How does a man show he's planning for the Future?
He buys two cases of beer instead of one.

How was Colonel Sanders a typical male?
All he cared about were legs, breasts, and thighs.

How is being at a singles bar different from going to the circus?
At the circus the clowns don't talk.

Why do men chase women they have no intention of marrying?
For the same reason dogs chase cars they have no intention of driving.

Why are husbands like lawn mowers?
They're hard to get started, emit foul odors, and don't work half time.

What's the difference between a new husband and a new dog?
A.A dog is always happy to see you
B.A dog only takes a couple of months to train

Why is sleeping with a man like a soap opera?
Just when it's getting interesting, they're finished until next time.

Why are blonde jokes so short?
So men can remember them.

What do you call a man with half a brain?
Gifted.

What is the difference between a man and a catfish?
One is a bottom-feeding scum-sucker and the other is a fish.

What did God say after creating man?
I can do better.

Husband: Want a quickie?
Wife: As opposed to what?

Why do men want to marry virgins?
They can't stand criticism.

What do you have when you have two little balls in your hand?
A man's undivided attention.

How is a man like a snowstorm?
Because you don't know when he's coming, how many inches you'll get, or how long it'll stay.

What do you call an intelligent man in America?
A tourist.

Why do jocks play on artificial turf?
To keep them from grazing.

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A New Try of Friday

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 07:06:26 +0100

This friday I met Mr. Bobby...
He came to my place...
picked me up and drove me around...
He is quite nice and a gentleman...
feel not bad to be with him...
at least...
I feel relax...
recently...
I just feel tried...

In his car...
with some soft music...
a little body massage...
I just want the time to stop a bit...

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Think Clear What You Want, Mr.

Sun, 04 Mar 2007 04:31:58 +0100

After that day I suddently found Mr. Tommy...
our relationship calmed down...
I am thinking of am I just too aggressive?
Suddently stand out of his building and said I wanna see you...
ok... maybe that day I a bit drunk...
but... I just wanna be friend...
not to scare him...

I didn't force him to do anything...
even didn't give a call any more...
I satisfied the "wanna see him" wish...
I won't step forward any more...

after the "calm down" period...
he finally called last night...
asked me, did I finish the book he gave me on that day...
Mr... the book give a easier opening for you...
then we start talk other...
asking how's the days recently...
anything new happened...
meet an new friends...

What do you wanna know sir...
frankly... there are lots of options...
I can meet lots of one if I want...
you know that... just normal date...
why you suddently change your way of speaking...
you don't want me to meet them?
you mind those little body touch?
you dun want there will be "kisses" happen?
finally... you wanna own me...?

But Mr. don't be too instrumentalism...
I am not the one you wanna call than call...
you wanna find and find...
and can satisfy your own needs...
like find someone to talk, those life sharing or even having sex...

Don't think that I feel good to you then I'll standby here...
I won't... and I don't needa do so...

that's the point

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I didn't say NO is that mean there is a possibility of YES

Sat, 03 Mar 2007 15:41:07 +0100

I didn't say no... is that mean I want it actually?
Didn't reject means give him a chance...
we still have chance...
I don't know...
but am I really don't know?
oh... I am not sure...

Mr. Ben ask for eating ice cream again...
We talked about many different ways to play...
but am I really wanna play with him?

After the first time...
if the feel not bad...
would like to have another time...
even more...
I understand that...

but...

are we goin' to be...

sex partner?

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A very Great AD

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 15:53:03 +0100

This is a really great AD for metro...

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Happy Valentine's Day

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 23:34:42 +0100

14 February 2007

In a chat room, a guy claim himself as a book...
talking to him can have more fun...

B'coz of my strong curiosity...
and nth to do at 1 sth a.m. ...
I gave him a call...

not bad...
He is a interesting one...

Life is weird sometime...
you never know wt you will happen...
and who you will meet...

he is the one that tune the perfect channel tonight...
those discussion within the talk are wise...
like another groping trip...
explore many things I don't know...
and hope to learn more...

not the normal killing(wasting) time gossip...
I am sure that I will ask him to go out...
have a drink or dinner sth...
I won't easily let a nice book go away...

Who is he ?
He is a man call Victor...

Happy Valentine's Day

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15 Reasons Why a Dog is Better Than a Man

Mon, 12 Feb 2007 14:51:39 +0100

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Looking Backward Looking Forward

Fri, 09 Feb 2007 20:40:37 +0100

After a period of time...
I would read my pass writing...
read my childish...
read my changes...

everyday I am facing something new...
meet new people...
get new ideas...
read more...
have some new inspiration...

I wanna know more and more...
explore the world...
explore myself...

Desires for every knowledge...
is an interesting part of life...

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A Good Partner

Fri, 09 Feb 2007 17:07:52 +0100

Having sex is like playing bridge. If you don't have a good partner, you'd better have a good hand. --- Woody Allen

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Another Dinner Another Sex

Fri, 09 Feb 2007 16:38:56 +0100

Mr. Ben wanna ask for dinner again...
actually, I just met his once...
few days ago, he asked me out for dinner again...
only for dinner ?
or...
the "meal" after dinner...
having sex is the main purpose...

um...
want sex is not a bad thing...
and I can't say he is a bad guy...
but the thing is...
am I really wanna have sex with his?

I try to keep him as a friend... a normal friend...
but... seem...
if we go out for dinner and then having sex...
later on... this situation may keep repeating...
then... what the relationship we are...
a sex partner ?!
someone have a good feel use to solve the sexual needs?
Oh my God...
am I really want that?

I don't think so...

friends never thought that I can be "open-minded" as this...

Finally...

I didn't firm his date...
didn't give a call...
didn't go out...

there is no right or wrong...
but I think I did something good to me at this moment...

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Why not enjoy it

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 07:28:10 +0100

We less talk about sex...
is it because in traditional society sex is a taboo ?
(ok...we can say sex is something needa do rather than talk )

just when people discuss about that some of them may think they are bad... naughty... if is a gal may think she is open-mind...
but what make sex need to "hide" ?!

Sex is something need to enjoy~

Masturbation, another evil thing...
unbelievable...
how evil to understand your own body and give yourself some joyful...
especially for a girl...
why not?!
it is not asking you to easily find a man to have sex...
but do something "self-comfort"

people are hiding to "learn" such kind of "knowledge"...
but don't want to treat it as a normal thing...
so weird...

and so sick...

use a positive(correct) way...
to talk to know something normal...nature...
is better than just hide...

"stubborn"... make people crazy...
make the society sick...

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Is that Some Kind of SICK

Mon, 18 Dec 2006 17:01:01 +0100

Everyday... I measure my weight...
I think... become some kind of sickness...
I am soooo care about the number...
Lucky that...
I just on diet but not "fast"...
Mind still clear...
eat health... and do more exercise...

But I really care about the number... >"< ...

Mother asked why wanna be slim suddenly...

for myself...

If I wanna get something I want...
I need to paid first...

Life rule No.1 :
No Paid No Gain

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